Comments on poetry

Hey there readers, decided to try some poetry. It was actually a tip from Henry actually. He sorta gave me the idea to try out poetry and so I did! Im very very new at it, so any comments or whatsoever that you guys have, please post them in! I want to be inspired to write more. Thank you!

-dudu-

Feelings At Hand

The pain there is,
Is like toxic in the seas,
No harmony, no peace,
Only pain and suffering exists.

A feeling like no other,
Is the feeling of love I feel,
As not love it is for one another,
But love so empty and unreal.

To change is one that needs trust,
A trust I need from my heart,
A change in self I must,
For a promise is kept at heart.

Life lives with sorrow,
As regret does with pain,
Come it will for every tomorrow,
And accept it i shall in vain.

-dudu-

My Heart Contained

Feelings inside me;
That never seem to go away,
They never seem to leave me,
As they slowly burn my heart away.

Pain, love, sorrow,
They are strangers to me - no more,
Feelings that will come again tomorrow,
As they continue to burn forever-more.

-dudu-

Back from camp

Hey there readers. Im back from camp!! hahaha. Camp was pretty darn tiring. On the last day I helped Pn. Suzina up the hill. Aiyuuh, the poor teacher, ate too much nasi lemak in the morning. Good thing is her 3 kids made it up just fine and she did too! She had to take a M.C today from school. haha. Besides that everything else from camp was great.

Hmmm, back to school now. Blegh. but IN A WAY, im glad to be back in school. Nothing much to blog about yet. Still pretty darn tired. will post summore when im feelin better. until then, toodllesss

-dudu-

Gone For Camp

Hey readers, im going for a camp on Friday and will be back on Sunday. Damn it im missing the France vs Togo match. I really pray France wins this one. Okay, need to do a final check before headin off to sleep. Cya guys back on sunday. Bye!

-dudu-

England 2 - 2 Sweden

Great start from England from the 1st half. J. Cole was bulldozing Sweden's right wing defence and scoring England's 1st goal against Sweden. England was playing it all out on the 1st half and they really showed good play. On the 2nd half, however, England geared down (oh what the hell, as usual) and allowed Sweden to make a come back. 1- 1. Gerrard nailed another one for England after the 80 min. line giving England another lead. 2-1. Victory for England was denied when Sweden made another come back nearing the 90 min. line ending the score at 2-2. Can't say im happy, can't say im dissapointed as well. England could have showed a better game but at least both teams made it to the final 16. Cheers to England and Sweden for giving a good game.

-dudu-

France vs. Korea

1-1 was the score that night on the 19th June 2006. Henry scored an early goal in the 9th minute, and after that it was a slow game and hardly a push for France. Then France paid dearly in the late second half when Park Jisung knocked in a goal for Korea, leaving the end score at 1-1. Besides that, France's captain Zinadine Zidane has been booked a yellow card and will miss their next game with Togo.

A saddening 2nd game for France in my opinion. I love Zidane, and I like France because of Zidane and Henry. Indeed a saddening game. Don't misunderstand tho, im clearly still an England supporter. =D. Good luck to France. Cheers to Korea for putting up a good game against France.

-dudu-

Destiny

Destiny affects our lives deeper than you know it. Everyday, whatever we do, its destiny. You can say that you could even let destiny control your life. Honestly, if we just live our lives the way we are, we are letting destiny control it. You can even say that everything you did was destined.. but, what if you could control destiny? You can, as a matter of fact. Destiny is in your hands, everyday, every minute, every second. Wow, now would you just take a closer look at what you're holding. Destiny with a capital D. Now isn't that a big thing in your palm..

Everything was destined to happen, if you look at it that way. You will see that life becomes very much simpler. Every slip you make and every fall you take, its destiny. It was meant to happen to you, and everything that happened, it just makes you - you. You are who you are because of what happened. Because destiny was in your hands, and you did what you did with those hands. Or was it because your hands was Destined to do those things? Whichever way you look at it, its 2 totally different outcomes.

a) now if you think that YOU control destiny, then every fall you take and every step you make means twice as much as it normally would. Your life is a mess.
b) if you think destiny controls you, then you're pretty much the sit-back kinda person, who doesn't leave much decision making to yourself. Your life is a breeze.

They're pretty close, how you look at it, i meant. But the outcomes are totally the opposite of one another. Or so at least thats how i look at it. Its good to be in control of your life, and sometimes its also good to let life take control of you. My comment? - i look at it both ways. when i make mistakes and do stupid things, i would say that destiny lead me to do those things, and it'll just shape me to be a better person when i learn from it. But when i see oppurtunities and try to grasp them to create achievements, i look at it as Destiny is in my control.

Destiny forgives and forgets, and Destiny can also strike more than twice in the same spot. Thing here is, when Destiny DOES come back, what are you going to do?

-dudu-

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Dreams, again...

Woke up from another dream of you. This time i didn't wake up on my own. The dream jolted me up. hmm, mood is totally different now.. i wonder when this would end.. it slaps me in the face every now and then.. giving me sleepy eyes and gloomy mornings. Kinda reminded me of the feeling we all have when we feel 'at home', when we feel comfortable, warm, and cozy. Its not how warm the lights are, or how soft the blankets are. Its when your heart feels like it belongs somewhere. Its when you're with the one you love. You jus feel, secured and comfortable. Like there isnt a need to worry for anything. You're not panicking, but ure not calm either. but ure heart beats faster and slower at the same time. You're at peace. Thats the feeling of being in love.. Well, im certainly in love alright..

sighs.. ok.. im heading back to bed.. cyall..

-dudu-

Thoughts of yesterday and today

First things first, the FIFA 2006 World Cup has kicked off for some time now. Im a supporter of the England team and just yesterday they beat Trinidad & Tobago 2-0 many thanks to Liverpool's Peter Crouch and Steven Gerrard. Stayed up till 2 last night with my England jersey on & eating my bowl of Maggi Asam Laksa. =D Lynn also stayed up to watch the game. This picture here is my England jersey that my aunt gave me from London. Love it so much. Matches my shoes too. =D

Alright, besides football, my life has been pretty much been what its been. PMR trials are in about 2 months time with the actual PMR exams on the following month. I should be gearing up with my studies now but sadly im not. Too lazy to begin anything. Need to start somewhere... like, perhaps now. =D hmm.. I guess this is it. Oh yeah, i thought i'd gotten over this girl, but its been quite a long time now, and she's still the only one in my head. Getting over somebody ain't easy at all. You can try to NOT think of her, but she comes right back at ya in your dreams. Caught in a pricky, pricky situation. lol.

-dudu-

Changes, changes, changes...

Hey readers!! Did some MAJOR changes to my blog. Threw in a whole new layout, gave it a whole new name, and guess what?!?! Clocks and countdowns!!! Haha, i decided to do this at like 12Am midnight on a wednesday night. No idea why. Henry's blog gave me some motivation. Hmm, new name because I thought the old one was getting pretty old, andd, i just thought that i should be revealing more about myself each time i post. So that explains the new name. Biggest addon here would be the clocks and countdowns. Gave it a small section to put birthdates of my closest friends that i have. Hope you guys like it. Now gooooo and tag at my board! tell me what you think!

-dudu-

Darn tag..

Okay, i've been tagged by cindy. Now im just gonna get over with this so i dont have to do it in the future.

i dont have anyone to tag.

the gender of my perfect lover is a girl.

8 things about my lover:

1. She cannot smoke.
2. She cannot do drugs.
3. She cannot have more than 1 tatoo on her body.
4. Her hair cannot be dyed.
5. She cannot be a saddist.
6. If she plays football, i will push everything else aside and marry her.
7. If she doesn't play football, then ping pong seconds.
8. It doesn't matter if she doesn't play any sports at all, but sports is a pluspoint.

-dudu-

A dream come true

Have you ever had a dream come true? Its when you dream of something, and one day it actually happens. I had a dream come true before, and of course, it was a good dream. Nothing special, but nothing horrible happened. I had been dreaming about it. And then it was just recently, before the term break that I found myself lost and my heart was 99% consumed by this girl, just like in my dreams. She's beautiful, thats all i will say.

Nothing special really happened, or at least, not to the odinary viewer's eye. Stealing quick glances and staring once in a while at another person, nothing special at all. But i think otherwise though. It was like iced coke on a hot day. And there was nothing more i wanted than that. Just being able to stare at her, and even talk to her, just like how i saw it in my dreams, that was just perfect. Just perfect. Call me crazy. But you can't really blame a person for living a day of his dreams.

I have no idea why i posted this, but i just really felt like giving you a piece of what i think.
-edited from a previous post. Changed everything.

-dudu-

Grasping your memories, and moving ahead

We all have bad memories. Memories that hurt so much that they're enough to put you down whenever you think of it. Memories like these can hold you back. Well, they certainly held me back. I've been stuck in a hole for so long now. And it doesn't get any better if you continue to whine about it everyday. Your hole just gets deeper... & deeper... & deeper. Until nobody knows you exist anymore. They know you as a saddist. One that hardly becomes cheerful.

Im glad i've gotten out of that hole. Now i smile much more frequently. No hidden sad feelings inside. That was how i used to be. Im Me again. Sure, those memories are still inside. When i think of it, indeed it still hurts - but never consumes me anymore. Im moving onward. Keeping memories with me to remind me not to allow myself to get into a hole again.

Nonetheless, theres a song in my head, that i can't seem to get out. The words seem to match perfectly to what my thoughts describe. So i'll let it out here, so i don't have to stock it in my head. And hopefully i'll let it go, and let my blog take the heat xD.
Ps ; the words in bold are the ones that mean the most to me

Celine Dion - To Love You More

Take me back in the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more

Don't go you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll stay
When she walks away
And you know I'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

-dudu-

Pieces During Vacation

Hey guys, im back from my short trip. We actually took a drive up to Pahang, den to Terengganu. There i stayed 1 night at Rantau Abang. Stayed right on the beach itself. The beach was nothin but beautiful. Though it reminded me of painful things. It reminded me of Peace - like how peaceful one's life can be. It reminded me about Friendship - like how easy it is to find friends and lose them, easier. It also reminded me about how life is about give and take - like the waves in the beach, they come and they go. I suppose im still abit shaken after I lost a good friend. But like the waves, they come and they go, and I can only hope time will heal things.

On the 2nd day we headed up north to Kelantan. There really isn't much there. We took a wrong turn and went up the wrong road where i saw this roadsign. Lmao. Talk about weird names to name your village. There was really nothing in Kota Bharu. Its an islamic state. Found a hotel to stay in. Ate dinner, walked around abit and then fell asleep. Drove home the very next morning.


We found ourselves in a 10 hour drive along the East-West highway from Jeli to Gerik, then continuing down the Plus highway to KL. Heres a picture of the Temenggor Lake - Man made dam along the highway. Also saw 'elephant crossing roadsigns'. Too bad we didn't see any of those big guys.


Overall, holiday was boring. But it was worth the experience. Getting to see my parents together like that, thats what matters most. I know they won't be here forever, so gotta spend as much time as possible now with them.

Now i can say i've been to more places in my own country. It was nice to get out of the messy life for a while. But nonetheless you can never run away from a mess forever. And eventually you'd have to come back to face them, like now. Its good to be back though. Go ahead and read this post and then drop a few words over at my chat-box aightt? Need to keep it alive and going. Thanks. Will post again.

-dudu-

Going for a family vacation

Hey there guys, to whoever thats reading, tho i doubt theres any, im going to Terengganu/Kelantan on Friday. Wont be back till Sunday. So until then you guys can reach me at my HP. Will be bored on the highway, do talk to me should you feel bored at any given time. Well, will update when i get back. Until then, Toodles..

-dudu-